Dear TT

Tatiana you are growing way too fast. Please stop it, it's not fair to me. You are starting to talk, can you believe it? It is amazing! You are a little person now. Well, not that before you were an alien but you get the idea. Next week you will turn 2 and last weekend I just turned 27. I guess the 2's are a good number, at least for Mami. Since we are talking about the 2's.... ohhh the "terrible two's" as they say.... I'm hoping you will be good to me. Please don't throw tantrums in the middle of the store or in sacrament meeting at church. I'm not asking too much, am I?! Should I bring the potty training topic. Let's just skip it this time, Mami is trying to stay positive. My Tatiana, my Tati, my TT I love you thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much, no wait thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much. I don't think you comprehend the love I have for you until you have your own kids. I know, I know you've heard it before, but let me say it again : I love you forever! Ohhh here it goes again, Mami being over-emotional! Well, maybe it's the fact that Mami's working and misses you a whole lot or maybe it's just you growing. My little princess everyday you make me proud!

Love,

Yours truly ~ Mami

Happy New Years!!!

Ky besoj qe eshte post-i i pare qe eshte ne kohe. Sot eshte data 01.01.2011 dhe i bie te jete date me fat ne fakt per TT-n. E mbyllem vitin shume mire dhe e filluam vitin e ri akoma me mire. Sot per here te pare Tatiana beri kaken tek uturaku. HaHa!!! Kur je mam keto jane SUPER lajme. I bie qe qysh 16 muajshe TT-ja ka filluar te perdori uturakun. Amerikanet u cuditen sepse ne kulturen e tyre femijet fillojne "potty training" kur jane 2 vjec. Kurse ne kulturen tone eshte komplet ndryshe, sa me heret aq me mire, biles kam degjuar qe disa shqiptare e fillojne qe 6 muajsh [ne fakt eshte pak heret.] Jam shume e kenaqur. Nuk e di nqs ka te beje me faktin qe lash Barryn te merrej me pastrimin e uturakut.

Kam disa dite qe kam pasur ne mendje ti shkruaj leter Tatianes dhe me duket se eshte dita e perkryer sot.

Dear Tatiana,

Je me kuptimin e plote te fjales nje femije shume i mbare. E mbush shtepine tone plot te qeshura dhe pse jo edhe me ulerima [akoma nuk ke mesuar si te komunikosh dhe kur kerkon ndonje gje fillon dhe ben klithma ankese.] Gjate shumices se dites je duke qeshur me ne, sidomos kur vijne njerez, hidhesh perpjete nga gezimi dhe i shkon afer ti buzeqesh. Ti nuk e njeh friken e te huajve. Nuk je aspak e turpshme dhe je gjithmone e para ne hapjen e nje bisede.

Ohhh sa i do kembet e gjysherve! Po, po kembet! Kur ato jane ulur para televizorit ti i shkon prane dhe i ulesh te kembet qe te besh xhiro. Ndoshta kujton se jane kuaj. Po sa merzitesh kur mbaron xhiro. Po ska problem se vetem dy sekonda te zgjat.

Mua dhe babin na do tmerresisht shume [qe te tregohem e sinqerte sidomos mua dhe mos kujto se po perfitoj nga fakti qe babi nuk kupton shqip.] Vjen dhe na jep puthje dhe perqafime. Lodhja e dites harrohet komplet kur vjen dhe perkedhelesh me ne. Akoma nuk je dakort me babin kur eshte afer mamit. Sa here e shikon duke masazhuar kembet e mamit , vjen dhe ja shtyn duart, e shikon me vetulla te vrenjtura, pastaj i bertet dhe dukesh sikur i thua "Si te kam thene more, mos e prek me mamin tim!" Keto jane shenjat e para te xhelozise.

Je gjithmone ne qender te vemendjes dhe po nuk ishe i'ua imponon njerezve qe te te japin vemendjen qe ti meriton. Si kane ardhur keto kohet e fundit, nuk ta kam friken qe do te te hapen dyert ngado qe do shkosh. Nuk ke si i shpeton rrenjeve te tua. Letres po i vjen fundi. Me fjale te thjeshta dua te te them qe te dua.....te dua.... te dua shume!

Your Mami

Letters to Tatiana

Dear Tatiana,

I just want to thank you today for being my baby. Thank you for choosing me to be your Mami. It is a privilege to raise you. You have been such a good baby to us- for eating well and sleeping well. You are full of surprises, I'm talking about the good ones. I don't think I had a bad day since you were born. This doesn't mean that I didn't have an exhausting day. Well, you bring such a joy in my life and I'm not saying this to make things better. You are my angel, star, princess, sunshine, flower, my everything! I only hope I will teach you to do good in this world. And even when you will make mistakes, don't you ever think that I don't love you.

You will never be alone. I'm referring to your father being next to you [non stop] and to the readers : Yes you were way off when you were thinking about TT having a brother or a sister :)

Love,

Your Mami

Letters to Tatiana

Dear Tatiana,

Today you will be 9 months old. Time flies so fast around here. You are sleeping right now so peacefully. I'm looking at you and I'm thinking what a wonderful baby you have been. Ohh your smile.. We live for it! You smile at every single person you see at the streets of Tirana. You are so friendly and don't mind to be held by strangers. Tatiana I know you miss your daddy, so do I. The first time you heard his voice on messenger you cried. You recognized his voice and you wanted him to be close to you. You wanted daddy to hold you tight in his arms, so you could feel safe. Well my love, summer will go by very fast and we will be reunited with daddy again. Today we will be happy and celebrate your monthly birthday. Happy 9 months kiddo!

Love,

Your Mami